woooooohhhweeee!

sometimes i think i am the single-most awkward girl on the planet. hand to God. i feel like i have the ability to make the most confident person just feel oh so strange in my presence. then again, 99% of the time its just ME that feels awkward in a situation. i love reading blogs and emails and such about girls and the boys they adore. whether they be crushes or boyfriends, fiances or husbands... its endearing. but anyway, i guess my point with that is... i wish i could stop being so shy! oh my word! i just get SILLY when a boy i'm interested in comes around. i suppose it also has a lot to do with the fact i've never had a REAL ADULT RELATIONSHIP. sure, adam and i were together for like 3 years... but i started dating him when i was 18... far from a real adult. now here i am, almost 22 years old, and i'm ready for that MATURE relationship. it'll be good when it comes around. i know it :) i guess i'm just nervous.

its strange to be where i am right now in terms of things pertaining to adam. i'm just... indifferent. granted, i want him to give me my $600 and my things that are in california, and it'd be nice if he'd deactivate the cs3 on the macbook he has of mine so i can register mine... but otherwise, i'm completely and totally impartial. i'm at a point where i find no need to facebook stalk or anything like that. i can finally breathe a sigh of relief! i know some of you still facebook stalk, don't you?! :P don't be ashamed!

one thing that does scare me though, is what if the next guy i meet and become attracted to has a shady crazy past like adam? what if he's hiding a turbulant relationship gone wrong where he really WAS the bad guy?! c'mon, we can all agree on one thing... adam was the bad guy and he just outright sucked at the end. what if this dude is really like that? how will i be able to tell?! granted his past is his past, but i dont want to waste another 3 years finding out a guy is a total doucher ya know? but i guess that is life. i should use the word "waste" lightly.. i learned a lot.. about myself and other people... during those 3 years. but thats definitely not to say i wouldn't sock him right in the kisser if i saw him tomorrow. boy oh boy i would :)

i guess this is where i say "not all guys are adam"... not all of them suck royally. :)


in other, totally non-related news, its now 2:15am and i'm sitting in my undies at my desk with my fat snoring puppy by my side and i've been crafting for hours. i shouldn't do that after midnight. my usually sloppy ways get even sloppier. i've been sewing and cutting and crafting polaroid (felt) ornaments and cutting fabric for hte fabric bunting that will line my newly decorated/rearranged room! i'm goign to be doing lots of fun things, lots of positive affirmations, and all thta jazz once christmas break rolls around. i can't tell you how much i'm looking forward to just moving crap around in my room! it'll be therapeutic!

(fabric bunting by sparklecandace)

i need to sleep so i can wake up at 8am, go get mice for Zero because my poor snake hasn't eaten in weeks, gather all of my stuff and laundry, load baby G in the car, go to the bank and high tail it down to hohenwald. i'll stay for a few hours, head back towards columbia to work at 8 (no clue when i'll get off.. sometime between 12 and 2am) then back to the parents to sleep, wake up and go to the stepdad's family's for thanksgiving dinner and who knows what else.

man oh man!

i hope all of you have a safe and happy thanksgiving! (and if you're not in the US, i hope you have a safe and happy wednesday/thursday! :P)

is anyone going black friday shopping?! i think i'm going to stay at home haha

ps; i bought myself an early christmas present today! a chocolate FujiFilm Instax Mini 7S! so so so so so so so excited! sadly it wont be here for 2-3 weeks (so says the site). but i hope it comes sooner! the instant pictures are the size of credit cards! so cute!

wishlist!

so i've always been incredibly independent, even to the point to where i'm damn near impossible to shop for at christmas. i LOVE christmas though. i don't ever get tired of the christmas music, the lights, the decorations, anything. i love showering people i adore with things their hearts lust for. thats just my love language i guess. but the holidays! i love it all. mainly because its the only time i really get to go back home to my parents' for a more than a day or two. but every year its the same routine... my mom asks "what do you want for christmas?" and my answer never changes "nothing really." because i dont NEED anything. and if i WANT anything special, i go buy it for myself. i dont wait for a special occasion. i've definitely tried reigning in my spending as of late (way easier said than done!) but i've been good about not going to the mall. huzzah! so heres a small little list of things i'd love for christmas (but i'm still not asking my parents for... i dont know.. i just... i dont feel like i need to be bought things... granted that doesnt keep my heart from wanting :P)

MY WISHLIST FOR 2009
(click titles to be taken to the sale page!)

FujiFilm Instax Mini Film
(because i just bought a chocolate Instax Mini 7!)
$15 (for a 2 pack)

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Fresh Minerals Smoothing Prep Primer
$25.00

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Mickey 28 Raglan Top
$15.80

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Vintage Run DMC Top
$17.80

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H81 Pink Floyd Raglan
$18.90

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Ruffled Sweater Cardigan
$24.80

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Glitz Beaded Bra
$17.80

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Metallic Sequin Bra
$17.80

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H81 Chunky Yarn Poncho
$28.90

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Courtside Sweater
$59.99

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Devonshire Dress
$69.99

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Ivory Owl Pitcher
$34.99

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and of course giftcards to: sephora, mac, apple, modcloth, shop ruche, forever 21, charlotte russe, urban outfitters, h&m, therapy, amazon.com, barnes & nobel, border's.

i have older wishlists at kaboodle but here is my "current" one:
CLICK HERE TO SEE!

yea yea yea the end. :)

whats on YOUR wishlist this year? do you have any fun holiday traditions or plans?!

tattoo tuesday!

here is your weekly dose of tattoos at kaelahbee.com! such lovely work! i honestly would totally have all of those on my body. speaking of which, i need to call my artist because i'm WAY overdue on a sleeve session. happy tuesday!

xo

ps; SHOW ME YOUR TATTOOS!
if you've got 'em at least. if not, show me what you'd like to get! :D

20 things i'd like to do with you...

1. Go on a search for as many good climbing trees as possible, climb as high as we both can in all of them, compile photo evidence
2. Go to a major chain bookstore, and leave notes to future readers in copies of our favorite books
3. I'll dress up as a ghost and you dress up us Pacman. Walk around downtown holding hands, and whenever anyone sees us, pretend to be embarrassed, and run off screaming “wocka wocka wocka.”
4. Create photo evidence suggesting that we went on an adventure that didn’t really happen
5. Dress up as superheroes and stop at least one petty crime “ie. jaywalking, littering….”
6. Build forts out of furniture and blankets, and wage war with paper airplanes.
7. Try and visit as many people as we can in one night, and turn as many things inside their apartment upside down as we can, without them noticing.
8. Go to the airport, get the cheapest, soonest departing flight to anywhere when we show up, and stay there for a weekend.
9. Write a piece of fiction together. Outside at a cafe. Ask strangers when we get stuck.
10. Dress to the nines, pretend to be married, and test drive very expensive vehicles at an auto dealership.
11. Do the lamest tourist thing in our area that we have both secretly wanted to do forever. Have an unabashed good time!
12. In the middle of the night, drive to the beach, so we arrive just as the sun is rising. Have a breakfast picnic, then fall asleep together. Bring a sun umbrella.
13. Drive somewhere unknown and have dinner in a city we’ve never been to. With fake names.
14. Go to a minor league baseball game under the stars. Tell each other stories about how bad we are at athletics. Randomly cheer for both teams. Eat lots of Cracker Jacks.
15. Go around the city with sidewalk chalk and draw hearts with equations inside on random things
16. Walk around a city and perform short silent plays in front of security cameras
17. With camera and pair of boots, make photolog of a day in the life of the invisible man.
18. Walk around the city all night and find a place to eat breakfast at dawn
19. Go to a restaurant and convince the cook to create something completely new for us.
20. Rent a movie we’ve never seen before. Set on mute and improvise dialogue.

music monday!

it's music monday timeeeee! i didn't have time to design a back cover to the mixtape, sorry! no one downloads them anyway, they're really just for blog aesthetics. i chose to put my face on this one (so narcissistic, i know!) because its a direct take from my new twitter background. lazy? me? never! haha

anyway, here are 10 tunes i've been jamming to this week! enjoy!

eleven twenty three
(click title to download!)

Tracklist:

1. AA Bondy - When The Devil's Loose
2. Dntel - Roll On
3. The Avett Brothers - January Wedding
4. Deer Tick - Easy
5. Rachel Yamagata - Be Be Your Love
6. The Republic Tigers - Buildings & Mountains
7. Paper Route - Waiting For The Final Leaf To Fall
8. Noah and The Whale - Shape Of My Heart
9. Tapes 'N Tapes - Say Back Something
10. AA Bondy - I Can See The Pines Are Dancing

Opening and closing it with AA Bondy thanks to the recommendation of my friend Craig. Thanks Craig! Just click the title to download! Enjoy!

If you'd like to download past mixtapes, just click below! (If you click the title it will take you directly to the download page. If you click "blog post" it will take you to the post on kaelahbee.com that shows you the tracklist and album art!)

• "A" Mixtape / blog post
  
• Songs That Say Goodbye / blog post
• Mello Mellow / blog post
• Kansas / blog post
• Part One / blog post
• One Of Those Days / blog post
  
• Part Two (previously unposted!)

AND HERE'S A SPECIAL TREAT!

Here is Fanfarlo's album "Reservoir"!

ENJOY!
xo

ps; don't forget, you can vote for my shirts in Brickfish's CR Next Design Star by clicking HERE!

tshirt contest!

i entered Brickfish's Charlotte Russe's Next Design Star online.. its nothing major.. just design a shirt and if you win you get a trip to NYC and a $750 shopping spree at CR. we all know i could spend $750 at CR fairly quickly. i entered 14 designs i think. none of them are anything special. i just played around in Illustrator for a couple of hours. The reason I didnt submit anything amazing is because if you read the fine print of the Terms of Use, you'll notice that Charlotte Russe owns anything you upload, therefore you give them a license to duplicate, alter, and produce your design even if you don't win.

now, i dont necessarily find this fair.... but that is life. many contests do this so i've refrained from uploading anything i'd like to keep copyright to and produce myself. however, i invite you all to come join and submit a few entries! just be smart about it! most of the competition is undeniably 14-17 years old, and most uses the graphics provided by CR. but its still fun nonetheless.

i just did a few quick illustrations and slapped them on. if you'd like to view my entries and possibly vote, that'd be awesome. i'm not going to beg for votes, i'm just putting it out there. if you think it's worthy of your vote, i'd highly appreciate it. if not, all is well :P

you can view my entries and vote by clicking HERE!

here are a couple i put in...





anyway, have a great sunday night, y'all!

xo

sunday funday!

so i didnt end up going into work on friday night. i wasn't feeling well and the stress from all of my final projects was making it so much worse. granted i lost several hundred dollars by not working... that probably didn't help either. however, i was able to just kind of hang out and kick it with AJ and Bryan. i went to bed around the same time i would have had i worked. yesterday i spent all day at the coffee shop doing homework and writing a ridiculous paper. its all bullcrap honestly. then i went to work. it was dead. sooo slow all night. today i woke up and came to panera and this is where i've been for the past 4 hours. tucked in my corner of the restaurant, working on my advertising campaign and i even had time to make a new twitter background. click HERE to see it. forgive me if it cuts off a little on your screen... i'm working on a beast of a 17" macbook pro so my screen is wayyy wider than normal computers. hmm.. i just did the mixtape for tomorrow so ill have that posted soon!

i cant wait for christmas break so i can rearrange my room, get rid of a bunch of crap, organize my life, etc. i have 2 days of classes this week and sadly they're my worst 2 days. haha thats how it works though, am i right?! i didnt work on my flash website much so thats a bummer, and i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning that i dont know if i'll be able to go to because of my homework. gosh!

wednesday morning i'm loading baby G up and heading down to hohenwald. i'll do laundry and then go to work from there. the night before thanksgiving is usually our busiest night of the year at the bar. isnt that crazy!? i'll work roughly 8pm til midnight or 2am. blah! then thursday is thanksgiving with my stepdad's family. i'll either camp out at my parent's house until i work friday night or ill head back at some point so i can shop. i didnt go black friday shopping last year (first time in 15 years...) so i might not again this year. i shouldn't spend any moniezzzz.

sorry i didnt let that post go from the queue like i said i would. there are some things i want to elaborate on first :) and several things i'd like to get YOUR opinions on! yay!

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i was thinking about following suit of other bloggers and doing a christmas exchange but i'm really unorganized and i also don't want to post my personal address on a public blog. if it were my livejournal that'd be different. if anyone wants to exchange small holiday things or cards, let me know! anyone who sends anything to me will 100% get something in return. i did it a few years ago and it was so fun! so let me know if you're interested! you can leave a comment below or email me at kaelahbee (at) gmail (dot) com!

hope you're all having a great sunday!
xo