wedding.

the picture above is hands down the most amazing and ideal wedding reception i've ever seen. then again, all of the following photos are absolutely amazing. nothing like a truly southern wedding (granted these could be from anywhere) but it's exactly how i see my own.

hope my groom doesnt mind riding off on an old pale yellow bicycle because thats kind of what i've got my heart set on ;) followed by a vintage car, of course.

i've been busy concepting ideas for my mother's wedding this coming spring. i'm so blessed and grateful to be her maid of honor. i'm so so soooo incredibly excited for the rest of her life to be spent with Robert. i truly do love him and i know he'll be the one to walk me down the aisle one day. the next to last picture is from my friend Joanna's wedding earlier this month. i wasn't in attendance but i couldn't help but enjoy the simple but elegant chair arrangement in her own backyard.

camping.

i would like this to be in my very near future.

ampersands.

the science of sleep.

maybe this will be on my agenda this evening.

think.

Whatever it is you want, Kaelah, think about it.

Think and think and think.

And as surely as day follows night, that which you have thought about will be drawn into your life - be it answers, friendships, health, abundance, or love.

It's the law.

-The Universe

I love waking up in the morning and getting my daily ~Note from the Universe. They're written by writer & adventurer, Mike Dooley. I highly suggest signing up for them. It's just one email in the morning and it's a great way to start the day. Try it out, if you don't like it you can always unsubscribe.

xo

little words.

confidant.

i apologize for the awkwardness of the above picture but i was tryin to show a friend the portrait on my inner arm. it's just the first layer and i need to sit again to get the finished piece but anyway... its my mother.

i've said it countless times before but she is a saint. she is who i run to. always. i can't go a full day without hearing her voice on the phone. its so reassuring. and today thats exactly what i needed. i started to venture down to hohenwald but i got halfway there, lost it listening to copeland, and i turned around. i ended up in college grove at adam's grandparents. we played with the horses and lazed around. two hours later i was en route to my house. so i called my mother. i really wanted to see her today because i've just been the host of a heavy heart for the past few days. even though i couldn't be there in body, she managed to come through for me via telephone. we had a wonderful conversation where i cried and she told me everything will be alright.

i know i just sound like i'm harping on a subject but today was exactly what i needed. the weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and my heart sits comfortably in the cavity of my chest. i know that things will be more than alright and i feel truly blessed to be able to look at things this way.

i've been thinking about where i'll be venturing off to once i graduate college. less than 16 months away and i'll be finished with this degree. theres no telling where life will take me. new york city. san francisco. maybe even staying here in nashville. i dont want to get too ahead of myself but i can honestly say that without a doubt, i'm so excited for it.

i feel like a brand new person. my faith has been restored and i want to make sure i'm doing the best i can to aide in the full spectrum of humanity. not to mention after i got home, i vented to Bryan and being the awesome best friend that he is, he took the last half of the day off of work and we just hung out. it was awesome.


with that being said, i'm going to go play some Mario Kart on the n64 with Bryan and Apple Jacks. hokay!

xo

truth.

You did it. You acknowledged the elephant in the room. You said what needed to be said and frankly, I’m proud of you! Now what? Well, I suppose we find a way to deal with the elephant. What were the reactions or non-reactions when you spoke the truth? Is this (A) something worth fighting for or did you (B) just want to clear the air? If the answer is A, awesome- keep fighting, I’m behind you 100%. If it’s B, then your work is done and now you can think about something else, like how unbelievably brave you are.


Today remind yourself: I speak the truth.

actions.

"You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter." — Nicholas Sparks, The Rescue

i like to believe everyone is good. that there is no real evil and that everyone is armed with good intentions. sadly that seems to be my downfall of the sorts. i trust people and i take their word. i judge them based on that word, rather than on their actions. can i just say, good and well, that i know exactly what nicholas sparks meant by that? i truly always want to give the benefit of the doubt and hold out hope that this time maybe it really is different... but it never is. its the same old charade. its convenient, its safe, and most of all, its not permanent.

i can no longer be your second choice, not when i've made you my first for the past three years. and i especially will not play seconds to a piece of plastic (aka your cellphone) and i sure as hell will not play seconds to your nasty drug & alcohol habit.

i've felt this way for a while... i've been over "us"... i just didn't get over "you"... but now i am. i'm ready to step out into the world and take it by it's horns. i will no longer let you be the excuse as to why i cannot let someone get close to me. i deserve to be loved, fully, unconditionally, and unashamed. it is not common practice to wonder who else you're leading on... it's never been okay. just because you practiced it for years doesn't make it right.

it's my turn to find someone who will reciprocate the 100% that i invest into them. he will hold me accountable, he will understand my sarcasm, and most importantly, he will be honest.


i'm sorry you couldn't be honest with me. but i'm finally being honest with you. when i walked away from you today, that was it. that was the final time i plan on seeing you. this will be best of us both in the end. no games, no bullshit. i gave you every ounce of emotion in my body today. you saw me cry, you saw me laugh... but do me a favor and just remember when you saw me walking away.

i'll never regret any of it, but i'll no longer spend sleepless nights wishing i had it back. because lets just be honest... you are not good for me. it's time for me to figure "me" out. invite only.


"As you become more clear about who you really are, you’ll be better able to decide what is best for you - the first time around."
— Oprah Winfrey

flattery.

imitation is the sincerest form of flattery.



why am i not impressed?

breakfast at tiffany's

"You know what’s wrong with you, Miss Whoever-You-Are? You’re chicken. You got no guts. You’re afraid to say, ‘O.K., life’s a fact.’ People do fall in love. People do belong to each other, because that’s the only chance anybody’s got for real happiness. You call yourself a free spirit, a wild thing. You’re terrified somebody’s going to stick you in a cage. Well, baby, you’re already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it’s not bounded by Tulip, Texas or Somali land. It’s wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."
— Breakfast At Tiffany’s



i couldn't have said it better myself. oh my word.

hot air balloons.

pretty sure this would be the best date ever (2nd only to going to the batting cages. i know, i know, i'm such a boy!)... but seriously. franklin/cool springs typically has 1-3 hot air balloons in the air at any given time on the weekends when the weather is nice. i'm sure i'd be tempted to pee my pants but man i'd love to ride in one.

click on each of the pictures to be taken to their respective Flickr photostreams.

xo

fairytales.

every little girl is raised on fairytales. stories of princesses and princes on white horses, castles, magic and love. we've all seen Cinderella and Sleeping Beauty probably countless times. Something as small as a hot air balloon in the distant sky got me thinking today... what happens when you stop believing in fairytales? Such a huge part of your childhood as a little girl... just gone. To this day I still believe in knights in shining armor and chivalry and love that knows no boundaries. granted, in these times i'm not afraid to provide all of those things for myself given that a handsome prince doesn't show up... but i don't think you should ever lose hope. there's something truly magical about holding out hope for your own prince charming.

keep a green tree in your heart and perhaps a singing bird will come.

xo

change of plans.

So Angela called me at 2:55pm, as i was walking out the door to head to work and said "wanna come in at 9 instead?" as i normally do.. HECK YES was my answer. everyone knows i hate 4pm til 2am days at the bar. no one comes in, no one tips, etc etc. plus i have so much homework to do. anyway, i'm at coffee beanery right now. sippin' on an iced coffee with soy and desperately trying to figure out how to animate in Flash... my project is due Monday. ew. I made the cutest little japanese-kawaii inspired pandas and a cute little backdrop. i just... don't know how to animate. COOL!

This is what confusion looks like.

Wish me luck. if you know of any sweet Flash tutorial sites or something, hook a sister up. Back to the grind, y'all!

xo

1Aeon Clothing Co.

Here are 2 of the newest designs from 1Aeon Clothing Company. Gabe sent me these in the mail this week and they're so comfy and perfectly sized. How badass are the prints, too?! I really really love the Tigerhead with horns. Loveeeee. Go check out the stuff and maybe pick up a shirt or two :)

the most fun.

yesterday was hands down one of the best days ever. it was so much needed. i may or may not have accidentally slept straight through art history yesterday morning. the rain made it impossible to pull myself from my bed. sorry brucey! adam came over for a bit and shot a few photographs of me as i tried to pick out a cute outfit for the evening. he did some photos for 1Aeon, too. ill post those later. he left a about 3:30 and then Brian from birmingham got into town. we hung around, ran some errands and just chilled until people started showing up about 8pm. i had a couple double/triple new old ladies, a few Red Stripes and ended the night with lemondrop+oj shots while playing quarters. so many people showed up and so many new friends were made. the ones who live in our household always seem to be the ones to enjoy themselves the most. either way, there was flip cup and beer pong and quarters and a keg of miller light (yuck!). sooooo many people. we got zero out of his terrarium (my snake) and everyone loved him. jared's friend finally left and it was just me, brian, bryan, tony, elle, regina, and ben hanging around. we had a lovely time. so much fun dancing and drunk facebooking. i really do love my friends.

if you were at my house last night, thank you. and i love you. :) thank you for making it worth taking off an entire night of work. i'd do it 10x over.

today i have to get ready and leave for work in the next hour. gotta be there at 4. working 4pm til 2am because angie is in a wedding. hopefully i can get some flash animation homework done while i'm at the bar. ridiculous... a bartender sitting in her bar with flash books and her macbook pro haha. ~nerdy.

here are some photos adam took yesterday. you can see the rest at my Flickr.

graphic design goodies.

^ my favorite business cards of all time. unfortunately the domain is no longer registered to this designer & even after googling, i was unable to find her. sad day.

picnics.

♥ / ♥ / ♥ /♥

theres something magical about summertime picnics. the season is growing to a close and then there will be a time for autumn's leaves and pumpkin spice lattes (lattes that i cannot drink, but my friends all thoroughly enjoy). i have a gingham picnic "blanket" and a picnic basket. wine, strawberries, good company, and photos.

someone accompany me.

therapy.

sometimes, the best therapy is as simple as fresh cut flowers on your bed-side table. (don't forget the reading material & a picture of your nearest & dearest.)

inspirational post.

heres a little bit to maybe inspire your mind. sorry i've been absent. we've been without internet but huzzah! today it was restored. hooray for whatever boy it was in the house who fixed the router.










i apologize for the lack of credit on the photographs. feel free to email me at kaelahbee@gmail.com or comment below if you know that a photo belongs to a specific person so that i can either credit or remove it. thanks! <3